Hmmm.... Just finish my exams... mid sem to be exact... now nothing to do.. so start wondering stupid stuff... which really bugs me for a loooong time....
Do u think that life is full of wrong choices? I kinda feel that way.. donno it's my mind or what... to me, it always about "How it should be now" or "might have been" these kind of situation.. for instance, " i shouldn't have did tat" or " it should have turn out the other way"...
It seems tat all the choices i made were the wrong move... It's like ppl r made to make mistakes and wrong choices, at least i felt tat way... I would start thinking, "it would be better if i had...." ... those kind of "what if" questions always come across my mind.. do u ever give a thought about that?
Mayb it's me, myself, or my mind is playing me...everytime i see someone being happy, reaching their goals, being happy together with friends n family or those wonderful times, i would like start thinking, what's so exciting n happy about my life? Ppl might had said tat to go aboard to study is a chance of a life time n everyone wants tat... but here i am, envying those who r in hometown, having achieving wat they want, yet still be able to lead a happy life with family n friends... wat was i thinking actually? i have no idea myself...
When it turns out to make life changing decisions, i really suck at that... since the day i left muar, i felt everything i made was mistakes and wrong choices... even untill now, i couldn't let go of the thougth tat i had choose the wrong engineering major for my studies....
Don't u ever get envy, or felt like "i should be there" when u saw other ppl acheiving better then wat u have now?
Here's a little survey... mayb u all can take a little time.. give a thought abt it.. my answer of course is the first one, my life should be far better then now... mayb i just dont know wat is happiness means... just like 生在福中不知福。。
From the song Never had a dream come true from S club 7:
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
Does ur life sounds this way?
